balik asal : dekonstrukting bali

jukebox : mungkin nanti (peterpan)


in search of peterpan
monday 6pm @ sanur alone

myths triggered this journey
the search of the myth triggers my search of the mysticism of Bali
"are you here for a month?" the drummer says
the myth that my journey is indeed by my own self
the myth that Ariel is indeed Peterpan?

the myth that rockstars do indeed go wild?
the myth that all these things that i've learnt
lessons from painful reality
careful social manipulation
the desire to winwin
the desire to be overriden by duty to others
is all but a myth??

will what i expect from acting cautiously pay out?
or should i revert to the familiar recklessness?

is my new faith in duty and love for others oay out for me in tanterms?
or will it be a more long lasting payout of inner peace?
peace i've seen in ubud spoke to me louder that my demons' calling
just two days ago

or has my escape from inescapable disease shown that madness wins?
or issit just the darker forces tempting me to the ULTIMATE FAILURE??????

the rain has stopped
the Bali mystic myth holds true (pak ali from singgaraja?? was right)
and the myth that the unstoppable paradise of pleasure has come to a stunning halt

and the myth that fame and celebrity will bring good gifts
i know for a fact that has been debunked by reality
peterpan are cold and unfriendly
but theyre just being boys before a gig
i know that as a reality
or will the only reality that rings true be :
the journey of self-discovery is only quelched by inner peace and preventing self denial (this line sucks too many g&ts at the sanur paradise lounge)


friday @ balikha while he sleeps by my side

white buleh berkemban in batik
him having an airconless simple room
all these gentle reminders
that what they think is unique and exotic
is my own melayu way of using our heirlooms

my voice singing bjork's anchor song
my longing for that ideal kampung
only shows that i have found the place where i belong
the sulawesi pirate in me lives strong

at home by the ocean
at home by the sawah padi
at home by my perahu's stern
at home with my buleh daddy

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balik ke pangkal jalan yang lurus
saturday @ garuda 840 flying over bali back home alone

mentari terbenam di pantai legian
warna-warna yang terserlah di angkasa
cuma memesaniku bahawa kau yang amat berkuasa
justeru aku jalan pulang dan diikuti azan

disamping asiran putih dan ombak yang hulur dan tarik
aku rasa kebesaran Mu
dikecualikan bahan jahanam dan kesibukan kota
aku rasa detikan hatiku mendekati Mu

disamping gunung yang suci dan sawah padi
aku mengingati masa yang lalu sambil melihat ke masa depan
disamping jantan yang jujur tapi brengset
jiwa dan hatiku tergugat tapi akalku berbelit

disamping teman pulauku , aniek yang sentiasa ceria tapi sedih
aku rasa tali sillraturahim makin erat
disamping teman jujurku, jeff
aku rasa hatiku retak dan lari kepada Mu

Ku mohon ampun segala dosaku
Ku mohon restu mu moga hidupku tenang

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hindsight
saturday @ home alone

winwin transcended to faith in fate and karma
my search for love transcended to giving love without expecting any in return
holding on to addictions transcended to re-discovering the addiction experiences in my pure state
the rain and wind carressing the trees to dance to peterpan
the need to be with him transcending to the desire to forget him

aku mau jumpa mu lagi, bali
aku mau cium ku lagi, sayangku
mungkin nanti mungkin nanti

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ode to peter pan by darling auntie k :

Mimpi Yang Sempurna, Bali 19 Des 2005


I look forward to sharing with you and sahabat2 tercinta my interesting encounter with Peterpan in Bali during their Konser Esklusif Bebas ProXL 19 Dec 2005. My memoirs shall be interesting as it is a picture of a Singaporean fan who travelled to Bali to experience what it is like to be in crowd of no less than 10,000 avid Indonesian fans all for one reason - PETERRRPAN.

I hope you will find some time to read it and consider posting it in the fc web. Attached are some nice pixs taken with the charming boys at Bali’s Sanur Paradise Plaza hotel.

Initially I had cancelled my Bali holidays 12-17Dec as the incident at Jimbaran and Kuta Square was still fresh in my mind.

Things changed when we saw your schedule peterpan @ Bali 19 Des. The fear factor was gone immediately! I have been waiting for this performance for a long time. Quietly I was hoping for something more… meet them up close and take pictures with them. But I was skeptical about it … mimpi yang tak mungkin sempurna.





Thanks to ALLAH SWT for 2 kind souls in Bali who have helped make my dream come true.

A kind staff Jerry at Hard Rock Café Bali answered my phone call from Singapore. I had called Hard Rock thinking they would be the best source on info on concert venue, tickets etc. He said he would try get info on the Peterpan concert and sms us. He kept us updated in the next few days. Jerry even went the extra mile by suggesting that he get us the concert tickets quickly before they get sold out. Tks Jerry!

On Saturday (17Dec) evening, as soon as we cleared Bali immigration, we dropped by at Hard Rock Café, met Jerry and got the 4 tickets! Just could not wait to get the tickets. My mimpi was coming near I thought to myself...“Aku menunggu mu, aku menunggu mu di Bali” was playing in my mind.

Sunday, 18 Dec after lunch in Ubud on the way back to Kuta, we told our friendly driver Nyoman to stop by at the concert location Lap. Kapten Japa, Padanggalak, Sanur-Denpasar to check out the place to avoid getting lost on the actual concert day. It was about 4pm as we entered the field where many men were busy setting up the stage, the spanduk etc. Warung2 and spanduk2 were lining up the path leading to the field.





If Jerry was kind soul number one, here at Lap. Kapten Japa we bumped into the second one. Bpk ini saw us taking pictures and asked where we were from. He could see we were die-hard fans yang datang dari jauh. Thanks to Allah SWT he told us that pp would be arriving soon that evening and would be staying at Sanur Paradise Plaza, hotel di perempatan Sanur yang ada Dunkin Donut nya.

Excited we quickly got back into the van and told Nyoman to proceed to Sanur Paradise Plaza hotel. There in the hotel car park we saw 2 vans with spanduk di belakang nya Jangan Ngaku Nge-Fans Sama Peterpan Kalau Belum Pake XL Bebas. Adduuuh excited nih… mimpi yang hampir sempurna. We sat down at the lobby for a while and had to leave quickly to catch the sunset at Tanah Lot.





At 7.30pm that evening we came back to the hotel from Kuta hoping to see pp check-in. No sign of them but crew after crew were arriving with their equipment. A short while later, from nowhere, Reza appeared. We said our first hello. Reza was very friendly and caring towards us. Told us that they have already checked in and the rest would be coming down soon for futsal.

Next Uki and Loekman appeared followed few minutes later by Ariel and Luluk (didn’t know his name or who he was at that time, maybe Ariel’s bodyguard). Despite having to rush to the waiting van for the futsal, the boys obliged photo session with us. Thanks guys waktu nya!

Ideally we told ourselves we should check-in into this hotel but all our things were back in Kuta, and it was getting late. With fingers crossed, we asked the hotel reception desk if there were rooms available for tomorrow (19Dec). We were fortunate.

Afternoon 19 Dec, as soon as we settled in on the 4th floor, we positioned ourselves at the lobby hoping to see the boys again. Yes, this time they were going for sound check. This time we took a picture with Indra and Loekman. Both were nice and charming.

At 5.30pm we left the hotel for the concert, which was schedule to start at 7pm. Surprisingly, there was no maddening crowd unlike other Indonesian cities where fans take position 4 to 5 hours before kick-off. We got ourselves the orange PP Pro XL T-shirt at the kiosk outside.

2DSD …excellent sound system and crystal clear mike here in Bali. Cheers to the sound crew for a job well done! Just could not believe it that here in Bali my mimpi yang sempurna. (Frankly the sound system here in Bali was much better than KL Stadium Merdeka).

The crowd here in Bali was generally well mannered and under-control. Tidak ada ricuh2 seperti konser2 di kota lain. Cuman usai konser ada yang mulai dorong2 keras. Di pikiran gue apa ini akan terjadi stampede. Serem banget. I hold on tight to my dad and kept telling my mum who was holding on to my friend Faizah to watch her handbag. After the ordeal, guess what? I LOST my precious hp!!! Mungkin saja dorong2an itu tadi modus operandi nya maling2 hp.

Back at the Sanur Paradise Plaza hotel that evening, just as we were entering our rooms, Andika appeared from the next room. We were excited to know that he was our neigbour. Andika said “kita tetangg”. He was charming and friendly, ngobrol sama bokap dan nyokap gue. Pantas dia seorang band leader, the founding father of Peterpan. Di situ juga ada Luluk tapi gue masih nggak tau dia siapa sebener nya. He seemed a friendly guy and he gave me a cute smile.

Besok hari nya (20Dec) sekitar jam 11 pagi, we braved ourselves to seek permission from a Bpk (security kali ya) to let us get into the hotel conference room where ProXL was having its Meet and Greet Peterpan. In there 3 local bands sing pp songs with siapa lagi kalau bukan pp as the competition judge. Was fun and entertaining apa lagi komentar Ariel yang sangat rendah hati terhadap anak2 band local itu.

We must say thanks to two ProXL male staff who came up to us at the hotel lobby later that day and gave us Alexandria caps, PP wristband and batch. Very nice of them but sadly we did not get their names. Hope they read this article.

GO PETERPAN GO!!! SEMOGA KALIAN SUKSES TRUZZZ… AMIN

Tak Bisa Kah terulang Mimpi Yang Sempurna ini ?

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song of 2005 : mungkin nanti

saatnya ku berkata
mungkin yang terakhir kali
sudahlah lepaskan semua
kuyakin inilah waktunya
mungkin saja kau
bukan yang dulu lagi
mungkin saja rasa itu telah pergi

dan mungkin bila nanti
kita kan bertemu lagi
satu pintaku jangan kau coba
tanyakan kembali
rasa yang ku tinggal mati
seperti hari kemarin
saat semua disini

dan bila hatimu termenung
bangun dari mimpi -mimpimu
membuka hatimu yang dulu
cerita saat bersamaku
mungkin saja kau
bukan yang dulu lagi
mungkin saja rasa
itu telah pergi

tak usah kau tanyakan lagi
simpan untukmu sendiri
semua sesal yang kau cari
semua rasa yang kau beri

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terima kasih bali
ku rindumu selalu





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