illuminati sunday : balik asal in(con)sequential perspective

jukebox : goldfrapp black cherry

kylie's maginificent dreams march poster now makes sense
march the month of dreams hence balik asal- hidup dalam mimpi
these dreams that have ensnared me in their deadly psychic net
true ou non?
je ne sais pas
as darling nin says : dreams n beliefs are all we have
so i shall hold these dreams tight in my mind's fist
and let them guide me down the path my heart n soul so badly wants
the path back to bali
the path back to him
but i refuse to succumb to the beauty of these dreams and live to dream
as ive done these past 2 days

instead cherish NOW like i said to aniek "aniek kamu lihat jauh, kamu seperti lihat memori dan masa depan , tanpa lihat waktu skarang"
practise what u preach yea?
i remember him nodding to what i said n i know all that i believe he believes too
thats what makes me so sure c'est le garcon pour moi

cherish NOW - darling zi's magnum opus of time, death, life n love echoing his words after my tear-drenched dejavu last dec "u live alone n die alone"
simple words so true
so true ive repeated them to my dear friends all trapped in their self-constructed cages

cherish NOW because after all the maps have dried up, only good memories left behind

cherish NOW in the believe that effort in the NOW will lead me to the desired tomorrow

consequenial is life
inconsequential is NOW if spent too much lamenting the past and waiting for tomorrow
but without having good memories to warm your heart
but without having good lessons learnt to lead you to your desired tomorrow
all of life's beauty and gifts will be lost on a life less travelled

the fine balance
the treading on broken eggshells of past
the balancing on perfect eggshells of the rosy future

time will never be right
it's only us who make it so

namun aku yakin dengan takdir dan mimpi
hatiku akan sabar menanti waktu yang elok

selamat malam sayangku,
eperdu

Post tahajjud vivid good dream

jukebox : requiem for a dream ost

I prayed for :

1. to sleep
2. to wake
3. to teach well
4. to dream of him if he is the one

I dreamt :

1. ben and mel (you look like judd nelson, great minds think alike, great faces look alike)
2. zizi and razi (you can’t leave the room right, razi shaking ahead, them discussing a creative proposal)
3. anaiz and fara (sleeping on the same single bed in his room)
4. ms aida + mr minnitt (not going to cc going to somewhere I wanted, checking up on cc doing well, wanting in gerai bathroom, housing ziraanfar, )

I woke :

1. cher…I dun have long pants (sweet gj)

its gonna be a good week.

God is great


epilogue :
hidup dalam mimpi nggak patut
sakitku sesuatu tanda yang hidup ini perlu dihidupi dalam waktu skarang
nggak perlu khuatir pasal masa depan
ku tidak mengambel endah pasal kesihatanku
ku lupa
ya ampun

liburan

jukebox : dewa - aku cinta kau dan nya

hari terakhir liburanku
ku disamping nenekku
ku bernyanyi dan tertawa
menghiasi hari ceria

hari terakhir liburanku
ku disamping kelurgaku
ku bercerita tentang dunia
dunia tak usai dan nyata

hari terakhir liburanku
langsung ku dengar suara muridku
dia luahkan rasa pilu
kerna dimaki sang keluarga

hari terakhir liburanku
ku baca mesej kawanku
dia bercerita anaknya yang sendu
ku tahu amat kayanya hidupku

Chorus :
nggak bisa bersamamu
namun hati ku menunggu
ku resapi anugerah Mu
bila ku lihat langit kelabu